OK so part of BPD is Impulsivness... I was told by social workers, pyscs, dr and my family that when i get down i shop...I dont go outrageous.. just to the second hand store, walmart, dollar store and mainly buy t hings for my kids... But you know what I've noticed? That it doesnt seem impulsive to me.. I debate it for what seems like forever, then end up doing it. I feel like crap when thinking of it, doing it and after. And if i dont do what i wanted to i still feel like crap.. So no matter what I do i feel like **** when i spend money... I friggin hate money so so sosososoososoos much! Does anyone else do this? What do you do to not spend money and feel ok not spending it?
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