As of lately, i've been feeling extremely depressed and I never wanted to come back to this state because a few years back, I was suicidal. I'm not to that point yet, but the depression is killing me. I can't sleep, I hardly eat. There are a few things that trigger this... I've been thinking of seeing some kind of therapist because as the depression goes stronger, my will to even get out of bed decreases. All my life, i've been depressed. But there have been some good years, and bad years. These past 2 have been pure hell... I have a friend I can turn to, but at the same time, he's never online when I truly need him. I don't know what to do...