Sorry for so many posts yesterday and today. Sigh.
My last session was not as supportive as I wish. I kind of expected that since I had an immediate problem to discuss. T was not overwhelmingly critical, and he was somewhat supportive, but he told me to see the other person's side of the problem too. I knew it would be hard for me to tolerate much stepping back and being objective since it was an immediate problem where the other person could have been very hurtful to me, and the other person didn't have much to loose. I'm very lucky it turned out, later after my session, that the other person gave me much less of a problem than I had reason to think they were going to. But I'm left feeling a little hurt by t not fully supporting me.
I guess I'm wondering if other people experience sessions where you think the t is pushing you more than working on building trust? Objectively, I know the things t said about seeing the other person's side are reasonable. But it's hard not to just feel hurt and unaccepted by t, and to think about stopping therapy. Anyone know of ways to keep optimistic that a t cares more about trying to help than that s/he is indifferent, when s/he pushes you to think differently? Or, maybe the issue is that people in general care- or that it's worth trying to do the things t says if it's difficult. How do you hang on to believing that (if i'm making any sense)? Because I suppose eventually, when therapy gets finished, it shouldn't matter so much whether t cares, right?
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