I agree with MDBPDPTSD. I think about to to gain control...then sometimes I think about it as an option to escape being overwhelmed. My intrusive thoughts are insane...right now a dream triggered them. Go figure. It was a dream about all the things I wish I had said to teachers as a child. Plus being put into therapy. Anyway...I come on here to escape these thoughts, and focus on others. My DBT helps, but I'm also on meds that help. Without Geodon...my thoughts would be uncontrollable. Now I can just go find something to do to clear my head....hmmm...I never knew what that meant or knew I could do it till just this very second. Wow....