I haven't felt confident enough to be here for a while but T today has made me feel...... I actually don't even know how I feel. Abandoned? Bereft? I just need some support or something.

I disclosed some stuff today about s*x and the way it makes me feel. I can't go into details. CSA was brought up and she has said she now needs to be very careful about touch. No hand holding or hugging like before and now I feel like she's abandoning me too, she doesn't want to touch me. I'm too horrible. I feel alone and just want to stop all this, I want to shutdown. I can't go back to see her next week. I'm completely lost.