Hi emre43, im sorry your struggling atm

I would definately get a doctor to check out the physical side of your problems and see if its something that can be sorted out with meds. As for the social phobia, are you seeing a therapist? I think the more you try talking to people the easier it should become. Perhaps go out shopping one morning and ask someone for the time or where a certain place is - it sounds silly, but this really helped me when i developed a speech impediment and lost my confidence being around other people. As for the whole porn issue - if its becoming an addiction again you might want to seek help. Obviously nothing beats real physical contact with someone but of course thats not always an option and at least your taking responsibility for your needs. Don't worry about loosing your virginity - it will happen eventually and at least this way, its most likely going to be with someone you really like and respect. Good luck sweetie, keep posting on here and if you need to chat feel free to PM me anytime