Lost, so you know and don't feel ignored. I have read this thread, but really need to calm down before I can really respond. I had not made the connection that you were a CSA survivor on top of the issue of your T lying to you and then basically blaming you. SO SOSOSOSO ANGRY on your behalf right now.

So, I'm thinking. and trying to calm down. I imagine that others on the board are having the same response, and we'll be able to respond to you more calmly soon. 'Cause right now, all I got is -- WHAT a jerk! Find a new T. And that is not necessarily helpful or what you want to hear.