Aw....I had cupcakes for breakfast!! Yummy!! And...it is better than self harm. Yup yup! Go click on Buttercup's post about What it feels like to have BPD. It's really cool, and uplifting I thought. You might need some of that right now. We think you rock!! Be easy on yourself....it's just cake, and a 'normie' would do the same thing. For sure!! I've seen them do it. Ice cream even!!