Hi

I don't know where to post this, so sorry if it's in the wrong place.

I'm not feeling good about myself lately, not at all. They say: be your own best friend. Well, I think I'm my worst enemy.
Anyways, the way I feel about myself depends on how others treat me.

Like last night I went out with some friends from school, and I know one of them isn't too fond of me, which bugs me cuz I can't stand the thought that somebody doesn't like me. So she's closer with the others, which is normal. But it makes me feel bad.

Now, my best friend has two best friends: me and another girl. I got the feeling that she and that other girl hung out a lot more than me and her. Could be because I'm having exams and she didn't wanna disturb me or anything, but we were meeting up this week and she said she couldn't make it, cuz she's sick and asked me to come over later this week.

I'm just putting thoughts in my head that people like everybody else but me. That I'm boring and no fun. One of my biggest fears is ending up alone, without friends or anything. I don't have many friends, no need to, I know a few good ones are better than a lot of "empty" friends.

But still, I HATE feeling like this about myself and I wanna change this cuz this is really getting me down.
I hope somebody has any ideas?