Nellicat, I'm so sorry that T changed her boundaries after you disclosed something so difficult. I really disagree with her- I think for people who have suffered CSA, it's even more important to empower them to set their own healthy boundaries for themselves. So if you were saying to T you didn't feel comfortable, that would be one thing. But for T to decide it's not comfortable based on something that someone else did to you? That sounds really painful and almost like punishing you for someone else's wrongdoing.

Like MUE, my T has a no touch policy. But it's a blanket policy, right from the start. I can imagine it would feel heartbreaking if she withdrew her touch based on something that had happened to me historically.

Can you let T know how you feel about this? Maybe by email if you can't speak to her? Or you could give her this thread?