it sounds very understandable. what do you need her for? to listen, to contain the flood, to normalize for you, to not-judge you, to guide you impartially, to give you tools to handle the new experiences... a thousand things that I wonder if anyone else can give you.

The people who say therapy is for weak people have no idea what they are talking about. It's all about huge change, hard change, and courage.

Hang in there!