Ya filling that void gets old...and expensive. I am completely content with my living situation right now, couldn't picture myself doing anything else yet I feel completely empty and useless for a majority of the time each day. Life as a bpd is the most complicated thing I can imagine...blah and if you try to step out of the proverbial box and really try to think "realistically" about these things we struggle with we end up even more retarded than when we started....Doing a 360 degree on situations can be beneficial but I know I, for one, take it to a whole new extreme. Sometimes I wonder if I need therapy or if I just need a life coach/babysitter to tell me what to do each day and what to say in certain circumstances and how to feel and what what what what ahhhhhhhh....so I'm here :P