This is something I struggle with a lot the whole idea of self care, self nuture etc. etc. etc.

I wondered what the idea of self care meant to others; how you practice it; how you overcome any tendency to sabotage it; if you discuss it with your T; etc. etc. etc.

I sometimes put something into practice and think this time I'll work on something that would be in some way a self care issue; and very quickly manage to sabotage it. My T always wants to know the thinking behind it; but it seems so automatic that I often can't identify the thoughts going on they are too deep, and part of who I am.

I know one part is that old idea of it being wrong to take care of me; wrong to comfort and yet its so embedded, that even knowing the thinking that it isn't wrong doesn't change anything at all when it comes to doing things differently.

Help?