Sorry, chopin, I was out of line again. I have a "thing" tomorrow and i'm a little stressed out. but I did have a bit of a reaction to your post, and of course we don't know what you talked about for that deleted 18 minutes of tape yesterday
but this affection business feels coercive to me; faith being the first order of business feels delaying to me. I think you might be acting out the mommy crush, not sufficiently mentalizing it. I never thought I'd use that term ("mentalizing"), but there you go. When your T said she worked with all personality disorders, it didn't mean she was great at handling all of them - it was more like, she isn't one of those T's who says, no more BPD's for me.

Something is going on, I don't know what. I don't understand what is behind your repeating the words "physical affection" - I only know it upsets me somehow. I hope that doesn't unduly upset you. It could just be all my carp.