I do not take meds. For over 7 years. Except occasionally when something really bad hits, like my father dying. But I would never tell anyone to stop. Because it took me years of stopping and flipping out to realize you can't just stop without dire consequences. There are some really good books out about the things you can do for bipolar to be more proactive. Like exercise, identifying triggers and accountability. And sleep and journaling moods and structure that you keep or go back on the meds. If you just go off, no matter who bland you feel, you will end up feeling even worse and regretting it.

So get proactive. I've heard "Take Charge of Bipolar Disorder: A 4-Step Plan for You and Your Loved Ones to Manage the Illness and Create Lasting Stability" by Julie A Fast and John Preston, as one good book to help. I read another book they wrote and it really helped me.

Please don't just go off. It is a process, and some people never achieve it. And I do not hesitate to take meds if I need them. My pdoc and I have agreed I can manage my meds, he trusts me not to over medicate or go without if I need them. But it is a tough road. And some people really can NEVER get off the meds. But then you have to learn acceptance, because this is a disease, and most people need to be treated. Hope you can figure it out.