Thank you W_I. I mentioned to T that I wondered whether my trying so hard to change things was working against me in my email I sent. He's always trying to get me to take things slowly, but I just feel the need to push on. If only it weren't the case that I know there is a limit on the sessions I can have with him.

As for the stress, I'm getting that in mega doses at work, and that is definitely part of the problem.

Feel whacked out tonight. Just want to go to bed - but it isn't even 6pm yet.