Hi, sorry that I have not been to PC in a while, forgive me.
I am hurting more than words can say.
This is something that did NOT happen here on PC but another site.
See this guy was talking to me and saying sweet things to me. But he was telling me how he desperatly needed a friend seeing how he was so lonely like I am because some girl he met online hurt him deeply and she totally ignored him. So we started talking. Just today she started to talk to him cause now he is totally ignoring my messages to him and I know he is online. So I was used. I have never been good enough to have a guy, I am in my upper 30's and I am only here for men to hurt me.
I want to be dead. I am accually still planning out taking my life. Not directly but indirectly, Bottom line if God does not make major changes come the end of the month I will purchase a bus ticket and head to the woods. I HATE LIVING. There is nothing for me anymore. I feel my life is done here.
All i am good for is to be used.
You can't imagine how sad I am, how very sad I am. I am so stupid to believe that a guy would accually want to talk to me, but again I was used. Most guys my age are married or want nothing to do with me cause I am sweet.
Thank you for letting me rant about this, I need to have a good cry, I hurt so deeply, so very deeply.
being in my upper 30's and never been in love hurts more than anyone can imagine. I hope to be gone soon, really I do.
I really hope with all my heart that no one has to go through this pain ever. You all are too precious for that