...or is it easier to count the times you don't......or is it just me.

I am not sure what is going on with me now, my mind is continuing to make links with all sorts of thing - like the "pacman" game, these links being created at speed in my head.

And now T features in most of them - for example my T told me about a female friend of his (it was a relevant reference) and I then thought about my ex and his female "friend" and somehow my mind thinks there is a link there, I can't really put it into words better than that - but I just want T out of my head and feel very confused.

At the end of those thoughts is the "That's it I want to stop this stupid therapy, what a waste of money to just self indulge and think of painful things".

I can shove all those thoughts somewhere and switch off, but when I look they are still there.

I am not sure what I am saying really - maybe normally this would be the rambly e-mail I would send to T, but I refuse to feel dependent on him and plus it is about him so that would be way too risky.

Soup