hi, cool09 - i have all of the same symptoms and am contemplating filing for SSDI. i also have ptsd. i know there is a kind of catharsis when i get angry and yell. with me, it usually indicates that i am seriously unhappy and/or frustrated. i also had an upbringing by a parent who yelled at her kids daily often over little things. there were financial and several health problems in the family. still, the yelling predates them. i really don't know what to do with my life. i am going to watch this thread for suggestions. i wish you the best with your issues.