I have had circumstances occur that would seem plausibly impossible except for the intervention of a super natural force. So, I have come to believe, that there is a God but that He is imperfect. He actually chooses, for his amusement, to reward savagery and cruelty and punish those who try to do good.

It happens all the time. I see honest, decent people crushed by the fates while dishonest sinister characters thrive. In my own life, things were much better for me when I was alcoholic, loathesome, cruel, and manipulative. Since I gave up booze and that sort of behavior, and I try to do the "right thing" my life has been in ruins emotionally.

I wish I had not been cursed with a conscience. There is no reward for it - because God punishes those of decency and rewards the vicious.

I know many think all the good in their lives are blessings from God and the negative is either their own fault or fate. I think this is the brutal trick played on us all by the higher power.

Actually, when I believe in justice, good, and right, I am always disappointed. But if I accept that if I do good, God will hate and punish me, it helps me somewhat cope with the consequences of trying to do the right thing.

It is inspiring to be able to do the right thing even knowing God will punish you for it.