All of my life, I've always been afraid to fall asleep. I could honestly not tell you why, but I could never relax and fall asleep. If I did in fact fall asleep, I wake up to the littlest sound. Sometimes, or usually, when I'm sleeping I am still aware of things going on around me. For example, I have to go to sleep with backround noise (a fan) to help me fall asleep, and if that fan shuts off I will jolt up, and be awake. Then, it is almost impossible to go back to sleep, but if I do, it'd usually take about 2 or 3 hours. Another thing about sleep that upsets me, is that even when I can feel myself being mentally or physically exhausted, it seems as though every thought in my mind runs through my head when I'm ready to go to sleep. This causes me to have to stress out about everything, and worry, and over think every little thing. Then, I can't fall asleep at all. On a regular day of sleep, on average I usually get about 6-7 hours, not including about two or three hours of me tossing and turning, worrying, crying about loss of family members or things around that...Also, I forgot to mention that if I dont have background noise, I will then hear things in the night that aren't really there, and then this wierd noise always comes in my head when my heart beats faster, it's weird, I can't fully explain. It's almost like a tiny dryer is in side my head, but then it fades away... I also always have dreams about drepressing things, myself dying, or being chased, getting hurt, falling off of cliffs in my grandpa's back yard, etc. I just dont what to do anymore, because I'm 15, and I belive thats way too young to have a problem(s) like thiss.
_Alessia