i think i just realized why i miss my t the most on the weekends (keep in mind i have horrible abandonment issues, and i have an unrealistic fear that she's going to quit her private practice for no reason, leaving me high and dry).

during the week i miss her so much because i think about all of the other clients she sees and how she refocuses her attention on them when she is with them and inevitably puts me on the back burner until i see her again, when i'd rather she think about me all of the time so i feel close to her

on the weekends, not only do i not get to see her, but she's not even a t!! she's a normal person, hanging with her husband and daughter, doing normal things. the separation from her feels even worse!!! is that crazy weird or what?