Have you thought about going to the site where you can adopt a parent? You deserve loving parents, especially during this difficult time. I'm glad you won't die a virgin - keep the dream alive. Sex is great but so is living. You sound like a great catch with a low self esteem. You will feel better. Trust me. Adolescence is the hardest time in your life but it will get better and when the time is right you will have sex - it will happen. You can PM me if you need a surrogate mom. And the girl? She doesn't know what she is missing. That said, there are many more. Take care, kiddo. Tomorrow is a new day