TY for your response
I've enjoyed a mixture of experiences both pinicles and troughs, (such is the nature of the entire man) for some reason my sleep was disturbed until I made the post, at one point I was even dreaming that I was typing it in; it was real enough that it took a few moments after waking to realize that I had yet to do it. As soon as I did, whatever it was went away (though the language I used in my dream was somehow more articulate than what I ended up posting) and I slept well into the morning.
One thing I'm sure of, is that man is a lot more than we seem to be. and the journey should end with understanding and the opening of new doors rather than a "pill".