I'm bipolar, and so I have been having a long bout of depression, since the end of summer of 2011. I quit the band because of anxiety. I can't work. But worst of all I've gone kind of numb emotionally. I don't feel that spark I used to have with my girlfriend. She asks me if I love her, and I really have to think, and I say yes, because I really do deep down. I just can't feel it right now. This really hurts us both.