Hi everyone. I'm here most days, but find it very difficult to post. It's safer somehow to be silent. Sorry I'm not supportive.

Anyway. Things are difficult right now. I have a strong feeling/need to connect with T between sessions. Like I am not able to hold on to that connection for a week. I worry she is angry with me, doesn't like me. So I need to call to hear her voice and know that she is there and it's okay. I've called once between sessions several times and she seems okay with this. She has told me I can call. Why is this so hard? I can't keep her in my head. Ugh...I feel like a big loser. She must hate me. Thanks for listening.