Not confusing at all ... Many's the time I've felt like a third wheel or last resort in certain friendships ... I generally busy myself with other endeavors and it doesn't take long to figure out exactly where I fit in the grander scheme of things ...

It's sad that not all of our friendships can be "everything" we need them to be ... It took me a long, long time to figure out that there are many kinds of friends ... From those you can call in the middle of the night to those who are just buddies, pals or mere acquaintances ... AaRrGgHh ... More shades of gray than this black and white thinker can process on her best day ... I wish you the best in getting it all sorted out ... I'm doing a little better, but I haven't quite gotten it all figured out just yet myself ...

Sincerely,
BC