Thank you for your reply!
Well, I guess it is because I feel awkward in social situations while other people are at ease. I can be very good during job interviews, or if I feel like it, I can charm a whole crowd and be "liked", as long as the conversation is interesting. People like my sense of humour. When I am in situations though where a group of people are keeping company with each other, for example a bar, and are basically having a mundane conversation with lots of small talk and they are being bubbly I have NO idea what to do. I feel as if they are from one species and I am from another. I just withdraw completely, and I am bored to death at the same time coz small talk is boring to me, so I lose interest. I don't have to be the center of attention in order to be happy, I don't have to be "center stage", but overall I am better socially if there is a defined subject of interesting conversation, and people are exchanging comments on it. Small talk and exchanging fast short phrases all over the place is just chaos to me. Pointless chaos, but that is how people seem to bond I think. Plus, as I always say, if I could go through life typing instead of talking, I would be much more succesful, even if I am sitting next to the person I am typing to! lol