I often have problems remembering, or believing abuse in my past was true...sometimes I get very deeply confused...

and..Today I was rumaging through my mother's file cabinet and found ...probably a treasury of reportcards and records all on me..

Every reportcard from Kindergarten to 12th grade says I was 2 years below my grade and that I was struggling, doing badly, didnt follor directions..daydreamed often, couldnt concentrate.

I had no idea I took Seroquel... my mother would always say "come, take your crazy pill you crazy lunatic" and she would shake the pill in my face..usually when I was screaming because she had beaten me senseless and all I could do was scream in despair for what seemed like forever....she told people that I was crazy ....
I read what Seroquel was used for on my file and it says *treatement for psychotic disorders* Im psychotic???? what????

...I was thinking debating on whether I should show my T my personal records...from kindergarten up until senior year high school...all the bad comments and the therapists my mother made me see...I even had a psychological evaluation that used the word "disturbing" over and over again...

Do u think I should show all this to my T
do u think shed lock me up for being prescribed something for psychotic disorders? (shes a college T..will I get kicked out of college?)