Okay, I agree with everyone else that you need to get some help. If your school has a counselling department, start there. They will be able to guide you in the right direction for what your individual needs are. Please don't hurt yourself until you can get there. If wanting to make your parents proud is keeping you alive, then stick with it until you can find a way to want to stay alive for yourself.

Keep posting, ten times a day if you need to. Do what you need to do to get some help, cause you are an important and valuable person. One day, with help, you will see this for yourself. Meanwhile, hang in here!