Yeah I need to try chat on here again. & work out some technical difficulties cause I tried last time & it didn't work (I only have Internet on my iPhone) I don't have comp at my house.

Yeah...California ...good old California. It's so expensive to live here it's ridiculous but it's sunny 8 nice outside & almost makes me feel worse in a way since its so nice. If it was raining at least it'd match my mood!

Idk about my meds. I've been on them since AUG and the only change I see is when I go low I go waaaayyyyy low. It's frustrating n idk maybe I'm just one of the few that nothing works? Hopefully therapy can help even just a lil bit... I have hope for that.
I'm on lithium,lamictal, & parnate cause I've taken pretty much every SSRI the past 10 yrs with no relief. It's obviously not working.

Yeah my T on fb, I like it cause if I feel I need to see him or whatever I can but at the same time, I've found myself posting stuff for him to read sooo...I asked him about his fb and he said he watches what he posts on there and nothing crazy or too personal and he has nothing to hide. Who knows he probably has 2 fb.

I didn't email him I really trying to ride it out, hoping it'll go away but it's not so I guess I will email him before it gets late...I just hate reaching out I guess. I'm going to ask him what is ok contact on weekends & stuff. I won't call. Unless I'm like dyinggghh. But I guess I'll email him that I'm feeling like crap :/. I HOPE he doesnt w/b it'll get better have a great weekend. Ugh I think that's why I'm not emailing him. Afraid of THAT response! That'll really send me into the hole.

Thank u guys for listening