jazzy, often I too wonder if my emails and poems to my T are too melodramatic and not "real". Am I making things up? I've decided that if the words pour out of me then I'm not making them up. If they are melodramatic, there's a reason for me to write that way. If I sound desperate it may be because I'm too afraid to tell my T but I want her to know through my writing. Maybe I write for the attention, but if that's the reason, then it's worth exploring.

I don't think your email is melodramatic. It's beautiful and touching. I think there's a lot in it to explore with your T. It's your words, so it is important. I hope you can discuss it with your T.