hey thank you PleaseHelp. it really means alot that you understand what i mean. i feel like a whiny %^&* alot of the time. it just feels like im going in circles and nothing ever gets solved because NO ONE LISTENS! so i just give up and live with it. im soooo tired of accepting other peoples needs over my own and having no one listen when on some rare occasion i open up. ty so much for listening