nojoy, just the fact that you know that he would have a problem with you being out late is not good. Are you not aloud to have a life? From what you said from your post it's not like he's upset that you were out late because he wants to hold you and he misses you. I'm really sorry to hear that you are having such problems though. I always like to think that there is hope, but you know the situation better than i do, and even i understand that some things are beyond repair. (Although people do surprise me) Well anyway, i just want to say, don't blame yourself. It's not going to do any good to put blame on anyone actually.