I once read a book about this awful illness with this as the title, I think it's very appropriate as a description because all i do is feel sad all the time, i am constantly on the verge of tears all the time because the losses i have suffered (i have 2 kids in care, my dad died 11 years ago this month and he was the only person in my abusive family who cared about me, i am estranged frm said abusive family, my mum brothers aunts uncles cousins, the lot) and even though i am heavily medicated with both ad's and antipsychotic meds too, it makes no difference, i can't seem to be able to move on frm a very hurtful past, yes i have had about 3 years of rehab therapy and counselling but i think it came too little too late (didnt get it til my late 30s and by that time a lot had gone wrong and a lot of damage had been done), i have Borderline personality disorder with a lot of PTSD symptoms (rages, suicidal thoughts, disassociation), and am wondering if it is just time i need of which i have plenty because i am signed off on the sick for my mental illnesses, or is there anything that will help me pull myself out of this deep pit of despair i have found myself in? i am not drinking at the moment though it is temptin to dive into the booze just for pain relief...i have that in the form of cannabis but even that isn't even numbing me out...in trouble guys...

thanks for reading this