Rule: Therapists are people too.

You need to tell who you need to tell. Just because you tell -your- therapist, does not
mean they are not going to be freaked out and institutionalize you. FIND someone who can handle it, your "T" or whoever, but take action NOW.
It may take a while to find that trusted SAFE SPACE with the right person to
help you with your issue.

HUGS and pls , don't hurt yourself.
find any alternative.

Like Skiing is always fun, or waiting for the arrival of the
Great Pumpkin.

-S-