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Originally Posted by dubblemonkey
I have an illness...that much is obvious...I continue to pretend as though I don't have an illness knowing full well that I do..
I don't want to be just sorta' okay or horribly not, anymore
I just want to get better
I want to feel better
I want to COPE better with this illness I got!
I want to enjoy life just a little bit and for longer
group hug 
monkey |
My sweet brilliant monkey friend, how did I miss this thread? A couple thoughts ...
1) From all that I have seen and know of you, the illness that you need to first make peace with and figure out how to better cope with is
alcoholism.
Alcoholism first. If you are sober longterm, you can learn to better cope with BPD and the rest. But every time you give in to the drink, hon, you stop coping with the rest. Sobriety first, BPD second, and the rest will follow. I promise you.
2) The people who love you really want
you to want to get better, feel better, cope better. So hearing you say that you do want all of this and more, and saying that here, sorta 'publicly', makes that truth all the more real and concrete. I'm proud of you for starting to really want to be healthy, J.
You SO
can enjoy life, J. You have incredible passion and drive and wit. Put all that and more of your myriad gifts towards living a GOOD life, and wow ... absolute awesomeness.
XXOO