I find that my mood swings are not dependent on depression. I can be in an over all good mood 95% of the time and still get triggered and be down in the depths of hell for a few hours then go back to my basically good mood. That is why I opted to get off the meds. I am working hard on finding ways to deal with that 5% of the time. I am having some success. I find myself only having fleeting suicidal thoughts now and am starting to be able to talk myself out of the hole. It hasn't been easy...and I have only been off the meds for a few weeks so we shall see.
Carrie

<font color=green>But the implicit and usually unconscious bargain we make with ourselves is that, yes, we want to be healed, we want to be made whole, we're willing to go some distance, but we're not willing to question the fundamental assumptions upon which our way of life has been built, both personally and societally.--Bill Plotkin, Soulcraft