i'm sorry venus but if you have read my posts as you say you have you wld know that i have lived a very hard tragic and heartbreaking life and you have no business saying i am too heavily medicated to proceed with life, if you knew what i have been through you wld not be so quick to pass a judgement like that. quite frankly i have lost all my appetite for life and i feel like i am just marking time til i die. when you have suffered as many losses as i have then maybe you will be in a position to judge. but until then please keep your unhelpful comments to yourself. thank you.