I suspected it but didn't want to believe it. My aunt was bipolar and I could see that I was alot like her. She was in and out of mental hospitals all the time and that scared me. I have more manic episodes than depressive but when the depression hits it drags on forever and I just want to die. Now that I'm on the right track with my meds I'm "normal" a good bit of the time, but I still get manic more often than I would like and of course the occassional depressive episodes.