Hi All.
It's Sezzie. I haven't posted much in the last few days. I'm so so so depressed right now. There's nothing much between me and eternity right now. I feel like everything's gone. I am completely stuffed up. I've stuffed things up so badly and there's nothing i can do about it!!!! I I don't feel like there's much point in me. I keep falling over and over again. I have no future. I keep dropping out and i keep spinning out. It's all gone. I really don't have any hope. I can't take this anymore. i can't take feeling like this anymore. I wish i could be a better person- someone who keeps going when things get tough- but i don't have it in me anymore. This has all been going for too long, for too many years. I just feel that it's all over. There's nothing to fight for anymore because i just can't get there, nor anywhere!
-Sezzie-
It's my birthday again this month and i don't look forward to celebrating it- i haven't had a non-depressed birthday in a very long time!
Please help me? I just can't see how anyone can at this point- but i'm desperate! I'm so desperate to get out of this hell!!!!!!!!