I hurt my bfriend's feelings. I called him an idiot because he watched superbowl alone rather than going with me to friends house. Once i realized i hurt his feelings, i apologized and said i understoodd he has to get up early to work and likes to be at home Sunday
nights. I always screw up. I mean it should be a no brainer if i call him an idiot it would hurt his feelings. And now i feel suicidal, and i
don't understand that, but everytime i screw up i feel i must die. Part of me thinks killing myself might hurt him more than calling him an idiot, but maybe i'm becoming verbally abusive and it would be better to remove myself from equation than hurt him day after day