why do you keep trying to delete your feelings? It will not work anyways.

By deleting your post.... you are not getting rid of it. Speak it loud and clear. Most people don't "care" anyways in a way to get oh-so-offended. We all have our demons, so I doubt anybody will judge.

Get it out, don't let it consume you. At least try to. Do you think it looks scary in text, the thoughts on your mind? Or are you afraid how others might take it?

and we can help better if we know what is going on.