As you may have remembered me posting last week.. my T really encouraged me to get to an urgent care and ask for some meds fast acting for my anxiety while I am waiting to get into a new primary dr to be on meds daily for anxiety.

I was going to go tomorrow b/c I knew that the PA that I know was going to be working and he would listen to me and was pretty sure that he would rx me something just until I get into see somebody. Well, this morning I woke up all in a panic and it was just not going away. So, I decided this was stupid.. I need something to get me through.. daily panic attacks are not good. Well, I showed up- talked about what was causing me anxiety right now (right not dental issues are triggering me). He established that he think my dental issues are okay. Then he addressed my anxiety..

He said b/c he was just filling in at that urgent care today, and would never see me again that he did not feel comfortable giving me an rx for anxiety. Then went on to question whether or not I was thinking any thoughts of hurting myself or others.. Asked me where my kids were, how old they were, what happens to them when I have a panic attack, etc. He really made me feel like he was questioning if I was okay to be with my kids.

So, needless to say.. it was a waste or time, money, and emotions. I was a wreck in there crying in front of him, b/c I am so over this panic crap. It was yet ANOTHER person that I have to tell about my issues and that just makes me uneasy in general. And it got me nowhere. I called T after that appointment b/c I was so worked up over it. That PA did nothing to calm my fears, and he made me feel frustrated, and even more crazier than I already feel. T did talk to me for a couple of mins, and calmed me down.

I hate that I am here... I hate that I have had to call T twice in 7 days saying it was urgent to call me back, I hate that he had to get me in last week for an emergency session, I hate that I am dealing with this. I just want to be done with it. The good news is, I have an appointment with a new primary care doctor this month.. but not until the 22nd. This just sucks!!