All Last week: I had a million things I thought I needed to talk about in therapy. I had trouble organizing all of these things and trying to prioritize them.

Today, 5 hours before my appt: I have nothing to say to that man. I wonder why the hell I am forcing myself to go.

UGHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh. Why do I DO this??? I swear this is getting worse and not better.