That's EXACTLY what happens to me, every week. I feel like when I've been away from my T for awhile I have a billion things I need his help with, but when the day comes I'm like, "WHY IS IT TODAY?!". My sessions usually go better than I expect them to, though. So hopefully your's will, too. And actually last week, I ended up telling my T about how I hated going and how I think this is getting worse, and he had a lot of good suggestions on how to help. So maybe try that? Good luck!!