I've felt that before. When I first signed the mortgage for our property, I thought it might as well be a coffin. I was going to wait to die in it. I don't know what changed. I don't have any magic advice. I did get beyond that mindset. I enjoy my life, though it is like I "wait to die" here, if I choose to look at it that way. I mean, I was content living without a job or responsabilities. I had to choose between my birth family and that way of living. I choose my birth family. Sometimes I regret the choice, but it was my choice, I own it. It was difficult adjusting, but I've adjusted. I hope this story helps. Been there... peace of mind to you