I've felt like everything I said was wrong too. It sucked. I got over it, it took time and I needed help from others. I realized that my image of reality had been largely shaped by sit-coms on TV and popular music. I was under 18, my mind was "raped" I think I can make an arguement for that. No-one told me those images were false, and dangerous. I was a kid, I believed what I saw. Where is the crime? I hope you can receive help, it sounds to me, that people want to help and are able to help also. Maybe you should consider meeting them halfway. Go toward them a bit more each time. Test your boundries, I think that might help. It helped me. Good luck with treatment. NO SHAME!