Welcome Macallan! Those are certainly topics I like to discuss.

But first, in personal response to your post, I understand what you say. What I have just realized (again?) is that after each really dark time, there is a spurt of growth. Or, maybe, before each spark of understanding that opens to me, I am mired into an equally dark time.

It seems the higher I travel on my path, the more I am required to undertake personally... problem is, whenever I am in the dark, I cannot remember ever being out of it, nor that enlightenment follows.

Yes, our connection to the Source is always within. It is the external influences that we allow to suck energy from us, the looters* in our pathway, that causes us to fall from time to time.

We will try to be here during both times for you! Draw from our energy as we GIVE it to share.... come back often.

*looters discussed in another post.

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