My PRAYERS you have my FRIEND..... my advice as a wife & Christian for 20 years is to remind your self of the LOVE that God has so unconditionally given unto you and then return that LOVE (thru Gods eyes & heart) to your family....... I know it will be hard, but I can personally tell you that I to have had to learn to LOVE thru GOD and not thru my own human heart/wants/needs/flesh.

LoVe,
Rhapsody -

Check this website out and their book (I love IT):
1.) http://loveandrespect.com/

>>>>>>> I am here if and when YOU need to talk (to vent ) as to release the inner emotions that now keep you captive.